I know the Bible very well, particularly the Old Testament, and use it as guidance in my everyday living; however, I interpret it drastically different from Christians and do not belong to any church. My faith does not fit any denomination, I have pretty much tried them all and found evangelical Christians' constant effort to "save" me, self-righteous and judgmental. I have never taken part in any activities or rituals of any spiritual entity of any religion neither did I belong to any such group other than the karakia (prayers) on the Marae (community centre). I have never gone anywhere to study the Bible or any religious book, what I know is from self-study of the Bible and my own spiritual experiences in having a very real relationship with my Creator. My religion consists of getting up each morning with what I believe God, whether he or she or it, laid on my heart and mind during the night. By the end of each day, if I managed to do what was given to me in the morning, making the best of the resources available on the day, then I celebrate a successful day. And the next day, I do it all over again. I do not live any regular religious practices such as meditation or prayer, my life is an act of worship. I try to make better sense of my world every day and try to live in tune with the will and timing of something or someone bigger than myself. I hardly ever make decisions on the spot but consciously leave it until the next morning as a way of allowing God's will to prevail. I know no other religion than Christianity yet I ain't no Christian. I found the fundamentalist Christian marriage oppressive. I have a lot of people from other religions in my network and find many of them a breeze, for some reason or other though, it has never come into my realm, to set foot in a temple of any sort. I have learned that when someone, irrespective of what religion, come to me and put their religion in my face, to run as they are using religion to abuse. So what is my religion? I am in the business of following clues!
|Susanna Susara Kruger||
Author, Speaker, Educator & Entrepreneur